Yesterday was a special day for me, I've met an old friend of mine that have left Malaysia 5 years ago. She was the most unexpected person on earth that I would bumped into in my life. Somehow I manage to bumped into her in Pavilion, at first she called my name with a tone of suspiciousness. I was totally shock when i turn back and look to realize it was her standing right in front of me. She was someone special in my life which gave me 2 weeks of happiness and 5 years of sorrow. Exactly after 14days, she suddenly vanish from my life. I only get to know that her family have migrated to a foreign country from her best friend. I always thought that all these only will happen in dramas, but it really happened to me. Haven't recover from the impact I took, she apologized and explained what actually happen years ago. At that time I was rushing to an appointment with a friend, and I didn't know what to say since I was caught off guard, I didn't even ask for her email or other ways to contact her. All I can remember is saying two words to her which is "Hello" and "Bye". I did some thinking, and finally feel how dumb I was for not letting it go for the pass 5 years, setting borders with friendships and relationship, trying not to get too close with anyone, locking myself in my own world where I won't get hurt. Over that 5 years I have been silent, dare not to voice out opinions, feelings and kept everything to myself. After yesterday encounter, I have finally look through most of the things and started to let this weight on my shoulders go. She is the one who indirectly motivate me to start this blog, and I am really grateful for this encounter. I would also like to take this opportunity to apologize to anyone of you who are reading this post if I have offended or done something mean to you guys before. I believe everything will change starting from this post, as this blog will be recording my remaining journey to pick up my shattered pieces of confidence.
Ps: If you are reading this from Canada, please mail me, i really hope we still can be friends. =)
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